13th October 2005,
Thursday. October, so fast, almost year end. It's time to evaluate the year progress. Yr 2005 has been a year of testing. A year that my faith was challenged in many areas. The year where I'm facing a lot of discouragement and wondering of what life is all about. A year of exposition of the worldy challenge and pursued- a year of compromise, a year where I'm the furthest from God, a year of distance, and sighing of what's happening. A year full of emotional toils and sinful flesh-ruling. A year of offensive-ness, a rough year...lost focus.
God is the Seeker, He seek me out of the soils, out of the darkness, out of all the discouragements, He seeks, His Spirit calling me back. It's all depends, of the heart-issue. Things that has been identified to be up-rooted, challenge to make things right.
The Word of God continued to knock at the door of my heart. I know this is right, yet..it's so hard to take hold of it. Do not put down the shield of faith and let Satan take over. Stand up, position yourself in the position He placed you, to be the sons and daughter of God, the heirs of the Mighty One. Stand up, do not wander, do not let your mind linger around. There's not 'Grace' for imagination. Guard your heart and your thought with care. Whatever beautiful, whatever noble, whatever praiseworthy..think about such things. Trust Him, hold on dear to Him, step into the relationship with Him, Relationship of closeness where you can just called Him Abba-Father. Come on!
